A bittersweet tribute.

opening day parkTomorrow evening at 6pm is the official ribbon cutting on Dalton’s Memorial Park in downtown Augusta.  The feeling could not be more bittersweet.  The park itself is nothing short of incredible.  It is probably more comparable to an amusement park than a playground.  Supposedly it is the tallest park in Kansas, has these humongous adult-accommodating tube slides and a zero gravity rail swing that is sure to be a hit amongst people of all ages.  That, I suppose, is the “sweet” part.  The “bitter” part is slightly more complicated.

 

To be honest, I have only driven by. I haven’t even gotten out of my car and stood next to the massive orange and black equipment.  That is not because I am not totally awed by the structure – it is quite the opposite.  The uneasiness and dread I feel (the “bitter” part if you will) comes from a familiar place inside me when I see these tributes done in the name of my child.  Don’t get me wrong, I love them…from seeing his initials on the warm up basketball jerseys of the Wichita Collegiate middle schoolers to his annual memorial baseball tournament in Butler County.  Ways of paying homage to him like that are terrific, yet the “bitter” feeling exists because he physically does not.  I would much prefer to have him here and let the park be nameless, jerseys to simply have the school mascot on them, and watch him play baseball in real time as a senior in high school as opposed to seeing him frozen in time as a 13 year old kid on an Annual Dalton Palmer Memorial Baseball Tournament banner.  And, frankly, the people who organize these honors for Dalton understand my anguish without painting me as ungrateful and self-centered. They are parents too do not fault me for admitting things like that.

 

As far as this park goes, it is my prayer to the community that the people of Dalton’s hometown enjoy it for many years to come.  Take your children, nieces, nephews and grandchildren down there.  Try not to become too winded climbing up those steep steps to the twisty slides. Go ahead and zoom down those suckers yourself.  Whiz by people as you take the curves of the zero gravity rail swing grinning from ear to ear.  Just do me a favor.  First, thank the city of Augusta and Augusta Project, Inc. for funding a project like this designed to draw more business to our downtown area while giving the youth a fun and safe environment to enjoy for generations.  Second, spare a couple moments telling a child or two who the park is named after.  Tell them, like this crazy park, Dalton was pretty wild and crazy himself.  He loved adventure and had a rampant imagination.  If you ask his closest friends, they would tell you he insisted on being the center of attention.  Isn’t it ironic how this park is definitely the focus of our downtown with its colossal structure looming over our very own historic State Street?  That seems awfully fitting.  Bittersweet, to be exact.

Happy 150th birthday, Augusta, Kansas.  May you enjoy another 150.

Lastly, I thought Dalton’s buddies might get a kick out of the video they all made back in the 5th or 6th grade while hanging out at the Stone Lake Park.  It was when the “Harlem Shake” craze was going around.  Notice who is front and center.  I apologize for the poor quality of the video, but I think you will get a chuckle regardless.

“We don’t stop playing because we grow old; we grow old because we stop playing.” George Bernard Shaw

3 thoughts on “A bittersweet tribute.

  1. I just loved the video. A true picture of your wonderful boy. I enjoy your writing so much. Sharing with us teaches us so much. Time does not stand still. Thinking about him being a senior this year is so difficult. God bless you and thank you for sharing Dalton with us. M

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  2. I have read this blog since the beginning, and I have never had the courage to post a comment. Partly because I was grieving from afar, and partly because I didn’t know if I could ever find the right words to express everything I would want to say. But, seeing this video, I felt it was time.
    See, I was Dalton’s 5th grade teacher, and that is how I clearly remember Dalton, as the fun loving, sweet boy he was in that video. I came to Augusta after teaching 11 years in Wichita, and Dalton was in my class my first year in Augusta. He made an impression on me right from the start, and even before the accident, I frequently thought about Dalton, and wondered how he was doing.
    I will never forget one day when I wasn’t feeling well at school, and I had to go home. Before I left, Dalton came up to me and said “I’m sorry you’re sick. Don’t you worry though…I’ll take care of things here while you’re gone.” I put my arm around him and said “Thanks, Dalton! I don’t know if I feel better or worse about leaving!”😂. That’s what made him so special. He was a very compassionate kid, with a great sense of humor. Another funny story about Dalton was…we were working on an acrostic poem using each letter of our name to describe something about us. For the “D” Dalton put “detractive” and I asked him what that word meant. He very calmly looked at me like I was crazy and said “You know, detractive…like I’m hot!” I laughed and said “Oh! You mean attractive, not detractive!” I still tell that story today and laugh. He was so serious! 😂
    I remember walking in to the funeral, and the first thing I saw to my right was a Thanksgiving Turkey we had made in 5th grade. My heart melted. It made me so happy to think back on that memory in class, but at the same time, so sad to know Dalton was gone.
    Jenny, I want you to know how much I appreciate you for allowing me the opportunity to spend Dalton’s 5th grade year with him. Thank you for raising such an amazing son, whom I will always remember. Accident or not, I promise you, Dalton made a huge impression on me. We like to think as teachers we touch the lives of students every year, but in this instance, Dalton was the one who touched mine.
    I’ve been thinking of you so much since this has happened, and I’m glad I finally got the courage to let you know how much Dalton meant to me.

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    • No comment before has touched me quite like yours. Reading your words, just for 3-4 minutes, felt like he was here again. I don’t know if you know this, but hearing your stories of him was the greatest gift you could have EVER have given me.

      We joke even to this day about when Dalton started 5th grade over in your class. I picked him up that afternoon and he had the biggest grin on his face. He says, “Mom… you didn’t tell me she was gonna be HOT.” Somehow I knew from that date forward that that year was bound to be great!

      Thank you for your words and thank you even more for loving my boy. ❤️

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